Journal

1/18/2026

I saw something profound somewhere online that said some people with ADHD don't form habits and it describes me to a T. I have to intentionally remind myself to brush my teeth in the morning, it's not something that happens automatically.

1/17/2026

R.E.M.'s Automatic for the People hits differently in middle age. I didn't connect with it in high school (liked Fables of the Reconstruction more then), but now, at 45, I do, and I have a feeling the older I get, the more it will.

1/16/2026

The opening weeks of 2026 have been a whole pile of depression compared to a year ago. Don't really know all the way why. I track them with eMoods which my psychiatrist told me about. It gives you a multifaceted look, letting you track depression, irritability, anxiety, and elevated mood independently. As I am bipolar 1 I have many of those things at a time every day.

eMoods Tracker

1/15/2026

Some heavy news, my 72 year old mother can't get back surgery to fix it so she can walk long distances because it doesn't cause her pain. And that's against the backdrop of people getting away with murder being blessed by the highest offices of this country.

It's just too heavy for Superman to lift (this is the Iron and Wine version of the Flaming Lips song)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUb85TnTiBk&list=RDNUb85TnTiBk

1/14/2026

Last night went down to Founders (our local microbrew bar) and saw my brother-in-law's band. It was good, they even opened with Just Like Heaven by The Cure.

1/13/2026

Had an ophthalmologist appointment today, and it went well. My glaucoma was under control with pressures just under 20. That cannot be taken for granted. @starjump you might like Starflyer 59, Silver (from their shoegaze period in 1994). It's further from Alcest, less metal, more like 90's alternative.

1/12/2026

I need to thank @starjump for the music rec of Sadness. I am playing New Body and for some reason both my regular computer speakers and my Echo are playing it at the same time with about a second delay. So it even sounds better. I love Alcest and Sadness reminds me of them somewhat.

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